Harlem Shake in Public Diner

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Baskin Robbins Commercial

This is a commercial I did for college, shot by my friends and I, edited by moi. This was my first real work in film making and I found myself loving it. Feel free to comment, I'm new to this and I would love to learn more. 

Insanity

Why does it matter when  you are in a big circle of friends yet find yourself missing out on an inside joke. Why does it matter when you go through Facebook and find yourself staring at photos of a party your friends went that you didn't even know about. Why does it matter when you're there yet you feel like you aren't. Why does it even matter?

A question I ask myself every day. Why does it matter so much to fit in because if it doesn't then for fucks sake, why am I repeating the same mistake every goddamn year, the same people I pick, the same fucking pattern, why do I keep doing this to myself. Why does it matter what fucking size you are, or how you fucking look, why am I so fucking superficial, is a question I ask myself over and over again. According to Einstein, I am considered insane for expecting a different outcome when I repeat the same shit over and over again. 

We are all a fucking load of bullshit anyway.

Lost and Insecure

Hi, 

The last time I wrote anything here was on the 27th of December, about a girl named Amanda Todd..I feel like it was just a week ago I sat on my green leather chair, tearing up about a girl I don't even know..I feel like I lost myself, I can't even begin to explain this. It's not that I feel sad or depressed, I'm far beyond that. 2012 was an amazing year for me, so far 2013 has been nothing but good, but somehow, something, just feels different. Something changed in me. 

It was a few days ago, I took a drive to my university on a Thursday night and bought fruits off a bakery (why do they sell fruits in a bakery?) What was I even doing in front of my uni on a Thursday night, that was the question. I don't even know. There I was, sitting by the lake, eating watermelon cuts in a cup and stared at basically nothing. 

Rest In Peace Amanda Todd

I recently found out about Amanda Todd, the girl whom killed herself after getting cyber bullied repeatedly because she flashed on the internet. She recorded a video of herself using flash cards to tell her story which you can find on YouTube. It was stated that she killed herself a month after the video was done. To be honest, I couldn't stop crying. It sickens me to know that these type of people exist in this world. How fucking ignorant can they fucking be. People make mistakes, but no one deserves to be treated that way. I guess we think its hilarious to be joking about these things sometime, "hey you're so ugly you should kill yourself" the fuck. We're only human for fucks sake.

Rest In Peace, beautiful.

Talentless

Wow I haven't posted anything on this blog for over a month, I wonder if people still  come here? I've been busy with my mid term examinations, glad that is over and done with. However, I am not satisfied with my results, I have myself to blame cause well, I don't think I did enough to even deserve better grades. Oh well..last night, Ireen and I went to campus on a Saturday night (fuck yeah who goes to their own college on a Saturday night?! APPARENTLY WE DO) to see our friend perform on this talent show thing. I met the whole performing arts group, how bubbly they all were. 

So there I was sitting with my best friend, watching all these talented kids, singing, playing their guitar, dancing, acting and even stripping (?!) yeah lol, well I felt like I've been wasting all these years doing god knows what, I mean clearly they know exactly what they were doing, I mean if I were to go up on stage and show them my talent, what can I do? Draw? Yeah I'll probably get tomatoes thrown at me.

Change

Change is bound to happen, even when you tell yourself you would never. It's inevitable. You grow up, your looks change, your personality changes, your music preferences change, your mind changes and things just don't stay the same. Nothing ever stays the same. So why bother get all moody and depressed when things change? I, myself realize that some things in my life need to change. I do realise. So before you read my tweets, see my facebook statuses or photos, see me walking on the streets, in university, or wherever or whatever, and say something along the lines of "she changed so much", stop and realise that I know it too, I look in the mirror too, I think about it too, it's not that I don't realize, I do but it's either I'm strong enough to go through these changes, now that is the question. Because at the moment, I'm trying. So please, give me a break.

Stick To Nature

Today, I'm gon talk about drugs. Yes kids, d-r-u-g-s. Drug abuse to be exact. I guess marijuana is pretty common to our generation these days, its either you smoke it or you've tried it before. Its either you like it or you don't. The side effects of marijuana are pretty much the pot in your lungs, you get super hungry (munchies!) hallucination (that's the whole point of smoking it, no?) and have really ugly photos but nope, no major ones. That's probably why mj is legal in Netherlands.

Popping pills however is a favourite to most people during parties, events, raves but once you pop too many or mix with other substances, that's when things can go really bad. I've never heard of people dying cause of smoking too much weed (I said weed not cigarettes) but I've heard of people dying at raves due to popping pills. I've never tried and I don't intend to, I know it seems like an awesome idea when the music's good, the crowd is good, but seriously, just be careful  I won't tell you not to do it, I mean why the hell would you listen to me anyway? All I know is that I wouldn't want to die at a party where everyone gets shocked for 5 seconds after seeing me collapse and then continue dancing to the music. Cause that would suck. 

Never, ever, try crystal meth. Yeah sure you get to lose a lot of weight if looking like a skeleton is your thing but have you seen the videos or actually read the side effects? Your face gets fucked up, your teeth gets fucked up, your brain gets fucked up, so what good does it do to you? Nothin. The high's good for a day or two and then it fucks your mood like a perky psycho obsessive girlfriend and nobody likes a psycho girlfriend, now do they? 

Conclusion is, stick to nature. 

Climax

A cover of Climax originally by Usher

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Love Like Honey

Hey everyone! Its been exactly 2 weeks since my last post, I've been caught up with university and other things. Second semester is super hectic, subjects are tougher and lecturers aren't as fun. I've got to start concentrating in class though, my concentration suck big time these days. I've been really active on Tumblr though, check out my blog http://sunshinesandbutterflies.tumblr.com, follow me ask me questions whatever! Anyway I've been neglecting gym nowadays and been told by a few people that I've gained weight, da da da so going back to gym next week! 

On a different note, my friends and I went to this rave festival on the 12th of October in Sepang to hear David Guetta and Alesso spin live. It was super effing awesome, I swear. 20,000 people, all came from different countries, I could spot a number of flags. France, Mauritius, Sri Lanka, Spain, UK and some others I couldn't identify. It was epic, enough said.

Our Playhouse

I'm blogging in a hotel room, a presidential suite to be exact that my friend got us for a night. Everyone left and she's asleep on the bed, since I have absolutely nothing to do I figured why not post something? I had a great night. Chilled with some friends in this sick room that has an awesome living room, awesome bar, awesome bathrooms, awesome bedroom and awesome awesome balcony. So that pretty much sums it up, this place is sick. There I was sitting on the comfy ass couch with my friends, playing some good electro house and hip hop music in the living room while rnb was played in the bedroom. Having a good time. I went out to the balcony for a smoke, sat on the floor and my best friend came to sit next to me. It was just like in Redang Island, the two of us, we both stared at the starless sky, talking about the most random things with good music blasting through the window, good company, good weather and I felt truly, content with my life. 

Happy 18th Birthday Alisya!

No exact word could describe how perfect my 18th birthday was. It started with me going early to college and since I had plenty of time to kill, Danielle Varment Irfan and I decided to go to a friend's place, Trevor. We just hung out, chilled and was pretty much lost in our own world when after what seemed like an hour, my friends came in the room with coloured balloons, cupcakes and a camera, singing "happy birthday" I honestly didn't see that one coming! It was perfect. After we headed back to college, more hugs were exchanged, birthday songs were sang in restaurants and class, gifts were given. It was amazing.

18 and Legal.

And its that time of the year again, where I get a year older. But hey, guess what? I'm finally legal ;)

Deflecting Pain

The first time I cut my wrist was when I was 13. I felt devastated and lost, after locking myself up in my room, with some hardcore music blasting out loud from the stereo, cutting myself seemed pretty normal at that time. It sounds ridiculous and idiotic now, but in my defense, I was 13. I got my tongue pierced when I was 14, I remember being depressed and I was pretty much at my lowest point so I decided to get a hole in my tongue. It was an impulsive decision. Every other kid pretty much judged me since then. A 14 year old girl with a tongue piercing? She's such a bad influence, yada yada yada. Funny thing is, all those kids that talked a whole load of bull back then, aren't so innocent now, are they? At the end of 2008, I got my belly pierced. I was in a huge fight with my mum so I skipped school and went to the city with some of my friends. I had always been afraid at the idea of a needle sticking through my navel but I did it anyway. At the end of 2011, I got my ear stretched. It was only for a month, thank god. I'm not into the whole ear gauge look. Imagine being 40 with a stretched ear lobe? Creepy.

Anyway, the point of this story is that I now realise that this is how I deal with my emotions. By deflecting pain, anger, sadness by inflicting pain to myself. Such a freak.

Lazy Sunday

Its Sunday, weather's okay for now, not too sunny and certainly not raining. Here I am, lying on my sister's bed, up in the attic (Yes my sister lives in the attic, don't feel bad for her cause I don't) I have my Italy football jersey on and boy shorts with earphones plugged in. Today, I'm enjoying my own company. I don't feel the need to talk to anyone, I don't feel the need to see any of my friends, I don't constantly check on my Skype to see if you're online, today it feels good to be on my own. 

Anyway, I've been pretty active on tumblr for the past few weeks. Follow me ;)

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More To This

Have you ever watched a movie or a tv show, or looked through all these photos you see in Tumblr and listen to all these beautiful covers on YouTube and feel like there's so much more to life than where you are right now? Sitting on that chair, browsing through the internet everyday, going through your life and livin each second as though it doesn't matter? Don't. Cause it does. Go skate, swim, dive, hike, sing, act, paint, draw, run, whatever, try something out. You don't know what you're capable of. Travel the world while you still can, see the beauty of asia, europe, the states, africa, travel the globe. Study your ass off, get a scholarship and travel. Trust me, life is so much more than we are right now. We aint seen nothin yet.

Thinkin Bout You

Cover of Thinking About You originally by Frank Ocean

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While In The Maclab..

Love Love Love

Monstrosity

Haven't had the time to post a new entry, my schedule is too packed this semester. Its just the second week yet my assignments are already piling up. Stressed out fo sho. Been on my mum's bad side for the past few weeks, everything I do seems to piss her off. On a not so different note, I turn 18 next Tuesday, on the 2nd of October but I just want it to be over and done with. Used to get excited for birthdays, well that was when I was a kid and when my parents gave two fucks about me. Things  definitely have changed.