Monday, January 30, 2012


Maybe, just maybe,
if I looked different,
you would treat me..

Radiant Shadows

My bestfriend was right, you have to follow the correct people on Tumblr to be inspired. I guess I should be blamed for following people who blog about gorgeous stick thin girls wearing gorgeous stuff that only stick thin girls could look gorgeous in which then leads you to hating yourself for eating too much during lunch and you feel like going on a hunger strike but you eventually cave in and stuff yourself with a box of pizza. Great. So that was what I did today, no not the pizza thing..I followed the correct people on Tumblr. That was when I felt something I have not felt in a while. I felt inspired.

To be better, to work harder.

Quote of The Day

"Of course I've changed. We all change. We all grow up, grow wiser, grow distant from the things we never thought we would. We all learn to laugh a little more and cry a little more and be a little more silly. We all slowly start to forget the people we once cared so much for, start to let the memories fade, and the faces blur. I have changed, and I will always be changing. For the better or worse, is a matter of perception. But don't tell me I've changed like it isn't inevitable."

Via laneezane / raindropsonredroses

Friday, January 27, 2012

Miserable At Best

The nights you appreciate most are the ones where you just lay back at the park in the middle of the night with your friends, hoplessly searching for stars and talk about the world as if you know it best. It may seem a little hilarious at some point, because how could a bunch of teenagers possibly know anything about life? We're just naive little kids. But that does not mean we arent willing to learn. That feeling of anticipation, eagerly wanting to build something more out of yourself. How many kids these days have that? Maybe more than you think, maybe more than I, myself think. We just don't bother to know, no one cares enough to ask.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

In Another Life

You promised we were in this together but why do I feel so alone?
How could you be so selfish?

Blood, Tears and Gold

I don't think it ever occured to you how important you are in my life. I can feel that you're fading away, I can feel that we are becoming distant. Practically strangers. And to even imagine that I'll lose you one day, to another person, to God..scares me. Maybe we've been together for too long, maybe we're too young to even know what forever really means. Maybe I just stopped making you happy. Maybe I'm not good enough.

Monday, January 23, 2012

A Girl Can Dream

Take Me Away

I've been getting goosebumps for the past hour.

I am sad, I am depressed, I am alone and I wish I had someone I could talk to. Its not that I don't, Id rather not burden any of them with my problems, as if they don't have enough to deal with already. On the other hand, there's always you. But I'm so tired of getting commented, or judged for feeling sad. I am so sick of hiding my feelings. I can't help it if I'm sad, I can't help the fact that I care. God, its just so frustrating of how depressed I am. Id like to travel, go to places I've never been before. Stare at the city lights, watch the sun rises and eat food Ive never eaten before. I want to feel safe again.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Can't Wake Up

Well hello there stranger, Ive left you here unoccupied for quite some time now. Work is taking over my life but I would rather do something beneficial instead of being a couch potato at home. Life hasnt been that exciting since my last post other than having a fantastic New Year's Eve. I havent had the time to start my reading just yet. To be honest, I miss doing the things I love. Reading and drawing. Its been a while.