don't be ridiculous: July 2012

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Cause We Care

A friend of mine asked if I wanted in to feed all the homeless people in the city yesterday. How could anyone ever say no to something like that? And boy was I glad that I went along because last night was truly a great experience. To actually witness starvation right infront of your eyes, oh dear God, how it brought tears to my eyes. Seeing how they were asleep on actual cardboard boxes while some just slept on the ground with nothing but a few sheets of newspaper changed my perception in a lot of things. There were some who were fast asleep yet managed to wake up as they heard footsteps and immediately thank God as they realized that we were giving out food.

Oh how we complain of the petty things in life, do we not see how lucky we are?

Thursday, July 26, 2012

A Whole New Chapter

I haven't been writing much. To be honest, I haven't been on any social networking sites in a while apart from twitter since I have the app installed in my cellphone. Its almost the end of semester 1, I know right, it feels like yesterday when I blogged about my first week in college and now I'm halfway done with my foundation. I seriously cannot comprehend how people tend to say they miss their high school years once they are in college, dude, high school was great but college life is just amazing.

This is the part where you have all these nasty assumptions in your head thinking "Oh amazing? She's probably fucked up now" Nah thats where you are wrong. I made some new friends that are practically family to me now. How we can just laugh about our stupidity, how I can just dance like a homeless australian around them and still be loved, now that is what we call true friendship. Life hasn't been this good since I don't know, 2005? Its refreshing to be in an environment full of people that just do what they want to and not get judged for it.

Embrace it.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Youre The Closest To Heaven

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Boy don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think they'd understand

When everything is meant to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I can't seem to describe this feeling. This desperate feeling of wanting to apologize to you. Of wanting forgiveness. Of wanting to turn back time. I keep rewriting this post. No right phrase or quote or sentence could ever let you know how I feel. You were always there for me. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. I told you once before, my biggest fear was losing you. The day that you decide to walk away from my life, the day you CHOOSE to walk away from my life, will be the day I fear most next to the end of the world. But you left anyway, you left anyway.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Darkness, She Is All I See

Its been a great week. Spent some nights with my classmates from college, just hanging out and listening to songs. Its amazing how we were able to feel so content with life by laying there in silence, staring at the night sky and enjoying one another's company. I love these people. I honestly thought that I could never be this close to my college friends, they are practically my family now. The conversations we have, the jokes we share. They're my ohana.

I went out with my two best friends from high school just now, Ashraf and Lutfi. I miss having them around. I miss talking to them. I see myself still being friends with them years from now. We may not get to see each other everyday, not even every week, but when we do, those days matter. We make those days memorable.

Anyway, here's a cover of Sunday Morning by one of my friends, Inara Pereira. Enjoy :-)