Wednesday, December 21, 2011

A Thousand Years

I have been keeping in all my frustrations and disappointments, all bottled up. Maybe I've reached my limit, I didnt know what triggered my insane mood last night but I realised I meant every word I said. I am just so sick of being used and yet, treated less than what I deserve. You keep on saying that you're just 18 well fuck it man, last time I checked I just turned 17 two months ago and I'm not complaining, am I? No one, I repeat, no one has ever treated me that way. I used to believe that someday, things may be different and you'll change but that was just me denying reality. You, my love, will never change.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Busy As Bee

Just to let you know that I will not be updating my blog that frequent for the time being as I have started working and I usually finish very late at night so the laptop is not my priority anymore. I'm currently working at Topshop, Sunway Pyramid so any CODs (cash on delivery) will be around Sunway area, no where else. Sorry for the inconvenience!

Sun And Sand

We celebrated the end of our high school years with a short vacation to our local island in Pulau Pangkor. Fortunately for us, the beach that was located right infront of our hotel seems to be the best beach there. Thank God for that! It was a great weekend spent with my loved ones. Played water rides, beach ball and I even learned how to throw a frisbee! Found tiny crabs, had awesome seafood dinner and laughed til we could laugh no more :-)

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Blow The Candles

It was the eve of my bestfriend's 17th birthday and it couldnt have been better celebrated. The sound of eight girls laughing and screaming at the same time was definitely what I needed after three weeks of nothing but examination papers.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

I Suffocate, I'm About To Drown

Its 4 in the morning and I can't seem to fall asleep. Its the 4th of December and in approximately 26 days, 2011 is meeting its end. Welcome to a new year. I vow to make things better, to make things work for not just me, but my family as a whole. Its been a long year, hasnt it?

I've been emotionally fragile lately or in other words, vulnerable. I guess I got sick of hearing complaints over and over again without seeing any changes. I got sick of hearing people talk about their problems and not wanting it fixed. I got sick of people judging everyone based on their facebook statuses. God, the coloumn says "whats on your mind" so if you hate seeing their updates on your news feed then delete those people for fucks sake and spare your sins already. I got sick of making plans to make things better. Fuck it, I'm only trying.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Whats Up Pretty People

Its Saturday and I'm up early. For those who do not know or live in a totally different planet (or country), we 17 year old malaysians had to sit for this huge exam thats supposed to be "the key" to our future. Its like the SATs for americans, igcse for britain people. My last paper was on the 30th of november, it was Biology and well lets not talk about that. Point is, high school is finally over and done with. If I didnt delete all my blog posts, you would be able to read my first real entry in this blog, it was back in 2008. How fast time flies. Cliche but very, very true. To be honest, I will miss high school.