Act of Desperation

I can never imagine how it feels to see the person you love walk away from you. Trying your damnest to pull it together, trying your best, trying to change yourself, for the sake of them staying. Yet it doesnt work, none of it does and all you could do is suck it up, watch them leave. The desperation you feel, makes you do things you thought you would never do. Then you try to avoid the situation, the heartbreak by destroying yourself, hoping you would forget. In fact, you do. For a second. But every night before you go to bed, before you fall asleep, you lay awake and stare at the empty ceiling, thinking about the things you wish you would just forget, hoping your thoughts would just disappear. And it never does.